Carrie Cotton

Just a Girl In The World Sharing The Ups and Downs of a Messy Life

I used to tell myself, that if a certain “thing” happened, I would never survive. I used to tell myself if a certain “thing” happened, I would NOT tolerate it. I would not forgive it. I would not be able to go on with my life. Yet, here I am. Living and breathing.  Going on …

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I used to think I knew what love was, and my thoughts were big and bold and grandiose. They were stereotypical.  Driven by big Hollywood movies, and magazine articles. I was insecure, and lacked confidence to begin with. So when I got into a real relationship, I had some pretty unrealistic expectations.  I was afraid …

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There’s a quote I love that says “God is up to something or the devil wouldn’t be fighting you this hard.” I think God must be up to something really big, because it feels like the whole universe is against me. My sixteen year old pushing boundaries, just being a teenager who wants to do …

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It’s coming. I can feel it in my soul.  I feel it everywhere. That date on the calendar that I absolutely dread. July 14th. It’s just a date. Nothing special, but to my family it’s the day everything changed. Even if I don’t acknowledge it, my heart remembers. And it’s hard. It’s the day my …

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Let me tell you right off the bat – I love my kids. More than words can express. I love my kids. I love their uniqueness. I love their quirks. What I don’t love is the stuff they don’t prepare you for.  I don’t love the struggles. The battles. The head to head competition. My …

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I know your pain and I understand. Mother’s Day is such a tough day for those who are missing the one person you never expected you’d have to live without.  I know I wasn’t ready to be without my mom. I wish I could reach out and hug you so tight and let you know …

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“Expectation is the root of all heartache.” I don’t know who said it, but I keep those words close to my heart. I used to live with high expectations of those around me.  I would expect the impossible, and I think I did it to avoid the disappointment before it happened.  In my mind nothing would ever …

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