Carrie Cotton

Just a Girl In The World Sharing The Ups and Downs of a Messy Life

I tell myself I’m being dramatic when I see a post like that and agree with it.  Trauma lingers.  Maybe for some. But not for me. I tell myself,  “I don’t have PTSD – that’s for people that went to war.” Truth is.  Maybe I do. My sister n law has mentioned it, in the …

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I made chili today and as silly as it sounds, it took me back in time. My mom used to make chili with tomato soup and kidney beans. She used to TRY and add onions, but some of her kids (namely ME) were super picky and would make a fuss if they even thought there …

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I used to tell myself, that if a certain “thing” happened, I would never survive. I used to tell myself if a certain “thing” happened, I would NOT tolerate it. I would not forgive it. I would not be able to go on with my life. Yet, here I am. Living and breathing.  Going on …

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I used to think I knew what love was, and my thoughts were big and bold and grandiose. They were stereotypical.  Driven by big Hollywood movies, and magazine articles. I was insecure, and lacked confidence to begin with. So when I got into a real relationship, I had some pretty unrealistic expectations.  I was afraid …

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“You finally found all your courage to let it all go” It’s one of my favourite lines from one of my favourite bands – The Cure.  From the song Pictures of You.  Listening to the song on repeat tonight, amazed by how  that song has taken on a completely different meaning for me now then …

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I thought about you today, but wish I didn’t. It was only because of a news story about a man who killed a woman, who was given full parole and released after just 17 years.  The woman who died was only twenty one years old.  Her family has had to relive the devastation over and …

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