Carrie Cotton

Just a Girl In The World Sharing The Ups and Downs of a Messy Life

I tell myself I’m being dramatic when I see a post like that and agree with it.  Trauma lingers.  Maybe for some. But not for me. I tell myself,  “I don’t have PTSD – that’s for people that went to war.” Truth is.  Maybe I do. My sister n law has mentioned it, in the …

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I made chili today and as silly as it sounds, it took me back in time. My mom used to make chili with tomato soup and kidney beans. She used to TRY and add onions, but some of her kids (namely ME) were super picky and would make a fuss if they even thought there …

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I used to tell myself, that if a certain “thing” happened, I would never survive. I used to tell myself if a certain “thing” happened, I would NOT tolerate it. I would not forgive it. I would not be able to go on with my life. Yet, here I am. Living and breathing.  Going on …

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I spend so much time staring at this picture. On the day my world was rocked to the core, I find myself staring again.  29 years ago half my family was killed in a car accident.  29 years ago, and this date still has the ability to shake me. 29 years ago, a Saturday.  My …

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It’s coming. I can feel it in my soul.  I feel it everywhere. That date on the calendar that I absolutely dread. July 14th. It’s just a date. Nothing special, but to my family it’s the day everything changed. Even if I don’t acknowledge it, my heart remembers. And it’s hard. It’s the day my …

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I know your pain and I understand. Mother’s Day is such a tough day for those who are missing the one person you never expected you’d have to live without.  I know I wasn’t ready to be without my mom. I wish I could reach out and hug you so tight and let you know …

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