“Expectation is the root of all heartache.” I don’t know who said it, but I keep those words close to my heart.
I used to live with high expectations of those around me. I would expect the impossible, and I think I did it to avoid the disappointment before it happened. In my mind nothing would ever be right and that way I could keep you at a safe distance. Building the walls.
Telling myself the lie “I knew you wouldn’t do…. – “. Nobody stood a chance against my unrealistic expectations that continued to change. If I was given roses, I’d be disappointed they weren’t tulips.
I waited for people to make me happy. I waited for compliments and got mad when I didn’t get them. I waited for conversation, affection, and more.
If only we realized our own destructive behavior before it nearly ruined us. I wish I could go back to that broken girl and tell her to stop making it impossible for anyone to make her happy. I wish I could tell her it didn’t protect her from the pain. It trapped her inside it.
If you are waiting for someone to do the right thing or say the right thing to make you happy you are always going to be waiting. And it will steal your joy.
People will disappoint you.
So don’t wait.
Don’t wait for someone to buy you flowers or take you to that movie you really want to see.
Don’t wait for someone to compliment you to feel good about yourself.
Don’t wait for the invitation.
Don’t wait until you feel better.
Don’t wait until someone says go.
Don’t wait for anything.
The only person responsible for your happiness is YOU. I only wish it didn’t take me this long to figure that out.